IN THE SILENCE

It is very silent in my home right now. At times like this I find myself thinking... a lot, about a lot of things.

I would tell my husband that many times, when he's at work, and I'm on my own (Mika's asleep), I would turn the radio on , or the TV just to hear a sound, so I don't feel so alone. There are times when I don't like being alone. It makes me feel so lonely.

I miss my mom, the simplicity of life back in Manila. I don't remember ever feeling this way when I was still there. I don't know, maybe because you can hear your neighbors talking, cars, tricycles, it's pretty busy even till the wee hours of the morning. You can call anyone anytime and talk about anything. Here, it seems, everyone is always guarding their time. You have to schedule everything. There's hardly any room for spontaneity.

I remember having a conversation with my hubby, we were talking about how life here was always about going to work and paying off your bills...seriously though, that's the way it's always been for us since we got here.

I realize though, it doesn't always have to be this way. I realize, that we have to make time for some recreation. Doesn't have to be extravagant, but we, as a family need to make time to rejuvenate.

I'm also sure that the enemy can use such circumstances to manipulate us, to trick us. He can take away our joy, he can rob us of our peace.

The Lord is interested in our day to day life. It is in times like these I realize I need to pray.